Season of Preparation (A Journey Begins)

Troy Husted

September 1, 2019

Hellelujah to our Heavenly Father. For I knew the Lord was prepping me for something great. In 2018, I was given insite the year 2019 will be a year of healing, renewing and change. And so far he has not let me down.

Our Heavenly Father helped in healing me of the difficulties that I faced the year before and teaching me who I truly was. I lost myself through 40 years of working and fighting within myself on what my purpose was, but was set free after this 40 years of wandering.

I sat here this night, stirred in my soul on what is happening and feeling a sense of joy. A movement in my life was changing. A network was being created with likeminded people stretching from the east coast to the west coast; from the southern shores to the northern boarders of the USA, Canada, Africa, India and the Middle East.

For the prayers that lay before my heart, the writings I share on of my daily journey and the scriptures that I receive and share with many have built a ministry that I did not extend to walk in. For God laid many new friends, whose names had meanings that reveiled God's divine hand upon my life 26 years ago.

God delivered me my first son, Colin, in 1996. Colin's name is an old Gaelic name meaning Dove, it also a short form of Nicholas, which means victory of the people.

For He has descended on my life that day to reveal the Spirit of Christ descending upon me and that if I surrender wholeheartedly that I can become a leader bringing victory to those around me. You see, I believed in Christ, but failed to be a true follower of Christ.

Unfortunately, I failed to truly repent and give my all to God to lead my life. God delievered me my 2nd son, Braeden seven years later.

Braeden name is also an old Gaelic name meaning Salmon. Braeden was born with difficulties with the left atrium upon his heart not fully developed, Kubuki Sydrome, low muscle tone and some other complications.

Our fears overwhelmed us with the thoughts that he would not live past the first five years.

During the long nights sitting at the hospital, I was reunited with God. I saw miracles and wonders and started to build a relationship with him. I put my trust in Him, but still wanted control of my life. He revealed to me through the meaning of Braeden's name that when salmon are born, they are born in rapid streams that move opposite of the currants where these young fish need to be. Through these struggles and difficulties, their journey will strengthen and make them strong to face the environment they will end up living.

Braeden also means broad valley. Just as the Isrealites wandered 40 years in the wilderness, they were eventually delivered to the broad valley or promise land. As Braeden defeated the odds against him, my faith stayed strong in God, but still wrestle control of my life.

Over the years God continue to reach out to me and delivered people into and out of my life revealing to me the paths that I was taking, both right and wrong. I felt that I was truly walking with God, but was fighting inside myself that I needed to do more.

I became a man who I could not identified, because I allowed my pride to make me believed I controlled my life and I can make it be what I wanted it to be. This became the biggest lie in my life, for I could never reach the goals that I wanted in life and the expectations from my family.

I started feeling as a failure and started lashing out in anger and walked in depression, despire and low-self esteem. I felt that I was fighting against everything in life and that no matter what, I was battling a daily crisis.

Then in 2018, everything that I loved and cherished and worked so hard to provide came to an end. Losing a job, then my wife filling for a divorce and losing a family I truly love; brought all the weight of the world crashing down upon my shoulders. I had no friends to turn to, as my life was overwhelmed in working and what little family time I had.

The weight was so powerful, that it dropped me to my knees. It was so powerful that I had only two directions to take. End my life in suicide or simply cry out to God.

So, I cried out to God and surrendered my battered life to Him. I laid all my failures, hurts, longings, and despire before the cross.

Three months later I received a call asking if I wanted to become a senior consultant. I never did any consulting work, but decided to give it a try. The agency was called Cornerstone. Befitting as Jesus became my Cornerstone, my new foundation, that I will rely on God to direct my life.

I was scared at first, because this new career made me an independent contractor, a business own whose sole income only comes through my time of working. I knew, I had to truly surrender and rely on God.

The first assignment delivered me to Pennsylvania, where I met people with meanings that meant God is my Salivation, God is my Hope, God is my Deliverer, God is my Comfort. I wrestled with my mind, my soul and started writing down what was stirring inside.

I struggled, but stayed on my knees in prayer, praising and worshipping God. The chains of burdens were being released. This I was rejoicing in.

I, not only prayed for myself, but started intercessing for others. I was starting to understand who I was, but did not know the journey I will take, I really didn't care anymore. I was with God and God with me, I did not want more.

Then, God brought a woman into my life. Her name meant true imagine or honest imagine. I knew then and there that I truly knew who I was.

I was a child of God! I was challenged on what love was, to pray and overcome temptations of the world. I overcame and kept my passion and love in God, and repented during my shortcomings.

I learned to pray like David and Elijah. I was given wisdom like Solomon and taught the true character that God wants us to be through Paul and His beloved son, Christ Jesus.

Three months later, God brought another sister into my life and revealed to me that the time is now here for peace in my life. Not only did her name mean Peace, but she lived in a city that had a meaning Abode of Peace.

After that I was being introduced by people in my life with meaning and symbolizing Peace and fruitfulness, May God Exult, Crown One, Beautiful, the Crown is Complete, Strong-willed warrior, Pure, Holy and lastily Goodness or Shower of Happiness.

Since surrendering my life to Christ, staying still and silence, meditating on Scriptures and constantly giving praise and worship to God, he revealed that because of my love and building a relationship on relying on favoring God, that I will find abode of peace upon the Prince of Peace. Because of this, the peace within me will be fruitful and that God will exult the Spirit of Christ upon me and the beautiful relationship with Him will complete the trueness of Christ within me.

For I will become a strong-willed warrior intercessing for others that face the same fate that I have experienced over the last 40 years.

For as long as I walk in purity and holy before God, I will receive the lasting goodness and happiness that I always have desired.

For what more can a man seek, but the love of God that rises within his soul. For I rejoice in gladness for the mercy and love that God has shown.

For surely, I did not received such mercy, forgiveness or love from the world. For through His grace He has shown me great love and I vow that I will never walk away from that love.

For I am thankful for all that Christ has done. I still don't know the great plan that God has before me, but will continue to intercess, write, pray and give praise to my Savior.

I am honored at the door of opportunity to share my journey, where many can relate to the experiences and be shared by many throughout the world.

I am honored of the many pastors, and many other people that have came into my life sharing their writings, prayers and being an example to me.

May I, too become an example to those who have struggled, as I, share with them the beautiful transformation Christ did for me.

For I, as a humble servant of Christ, lay before the Lord of my salivation, my life to Him, and to my fellow believers in Christ. For I shall walk in the Fruits of the Spirit spreading the love and gospel to all that welcome and seek it. May peace be with each any everyone one of you and pray that your hearts are open to the Lord.